Dhritashthira

by Aranyakananda

Events have been unfolding in the lives of people around me. Events that have been doing so for longer than I am comfortable admitting. Because I could have probably done something about it over the years had I been stronger of character and known the right course of action to take.

I was like Dhritarashtra, always saying “It is out of my hands. Fate is playing out.” Well I never said that about fate, but I never felt it was my place to step in while seeing a person mad with power bringing his own kingdom to ruins, shall we say, metaphorically.

I won’t go into too much detail about it because though its greatly affected me, it is not for me to say. It is not my life. And it has gotten to a point that it is out of my hands to do something even if I could. I have to wait in order for what is right to unfold. I am effectively in exile from the situation.

I am effectively Yudhishthira, saying be patient, be vigilant for the right time when this person will no longer have mad power over those he’s held captive for so many years.

It is strange how delay and patience can end up feeling like they were the same thing. Inaction. I waited and waited out of fear and uncertainty. Now I wait and wait out of a sense of duty (dharma) toward another person, trusting that they know what they are doing having finally taken personal action.

Oddly, an elder of mine is Duryodhana in this little drama I am describing so vaguely. And I suppose I am a bit of Arjuna too since I came into this long struggle not wanting to fight with loved ones.

Yato dharmastato jayah
Jai Hari Aum
Aum Shankaranarayanaya Namaha!

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Essence

by Aranyakananda

I dreamed I was in a large, outdoor courtyard with a concrete floor. I was there because in the concrete I’d had the life story of my grandfather (who died almost two years ago now) engraved. But I wanted to make some changes. Somehow I was able to change what was already carved into the concrete with a special tool, and I was in the middle of doing so.

Only I couldn’t figure out how to say it, so I left it and decided to sit down and do a puja over the tribute. I happened to be carrying a pot of flowers.

Only when I went to do the puja, I realized the flowers had died while I was trying to make the changes in the concrete. So I took the flowers and the soil out and set them aside and I tapped on the edge of the copper pot 3 times as one would ring the ghanta in the temple to wake up the gods. It wouldn’t really ring though.

Just as I did this, about nine men in orange robes came out of the ether into my awareness off to the side on another area of wide open flat concrete. They sat down in a circle and began chanting a long mantra. I left the pot and went and sat down with them.

Hari Aum Shanti.

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Yes, Master.

by Aranyakananda

Anyone who has been fortunate to find his or her true Satguru in this life will often refer to this person as “Master.” The Master’s word and will becomes as good as Scripture. Master, as in…I don’t know, “overlord.”  But in “Autobiography of a Yogi”, Paramahansa Yogananda gave his own definition of a “master”:

One who has realized himself as the omnipresent soul, not the body or the ego.

There is nothing hierarchical in this definition other than the implied suggestion that others apart from him/her have not realized the same.

But there is more. Not that Yogananda-ji’s definition doesn’t suggest that such a one would tell the truth all of the time. But great gurus have been known to test their students in various ways. Surely they test the student’s ability to suss out untruth from time to time, no? Cross training in recognition of Maya?

The biggest problem with my theory is that it leads to the inevitable conclusion that if 500 devotees read one of Yogananda’s discourses in “Man’s Eternal Quest”, each could decide from him/herself which words are in fact such a test.

And far be it from me to argue with the great Masters: Vivekananda, Yogananda, Ramakrishna, etc. But I try to maintain a healthy level of inquisitiveness toward all words I receive from any of the above listed or other Holy men and women anyway. I first wrote “wariness” instead of “inquisitiveness.” But I changed it because it is not that I don’t believe the Master and the truth he unfolds, but because I know that words do not always come at face value. The meaning could come in the Master having said the words, not in the words themselves.

A great master often employs great subtlety.

Jai Gurudeva Aum

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A Vicious Circle of Feelings and Perceptions and Feelings

by Aranyakananda

I was given the book “Buddhism Without Beliefs” by a friend recently. It is one of those books I had seen many times in Barnes & Noble and considered buying and even flipped through because it is not too big and therefore not too expensive and thought it was just provocative enough to be worth investing in. But I never did, so I was interested in reading it when my friend passed it on to me.

And it was a good read for the most part. Some of it got very dry but it had some nuggets of insight that will likely stick with me.

One of them was about perceptions and feelings. To most people there is probably a subtle difference between the two. Meditation reveals a veritable gulf between things that until then had been a subtle gap.

My perceptions of a person inform my feelings toward that person. The tough part is that my perception can be informed by feelings as well.

Say I have an enemy. You’ll ask me why that person is my enemy. I’ll say because he’s a jerk. You’ll ask what he did that makes me think he’s a jerk. I’ll say he said this or that to me on the bus one morning. Well there you go. I don’t know why he said this or that to me on the bus that morning. I have already let my incomplete perception of the situation paint the full picture. This perception informs my feelings toward this person.

Granted having a bad day is no excuse to say “this or that” to a person and maybe they really were a jerk for that moment. But still I’ve made up my own set of circumstances beyond the fact of that person’s external response toward me that day on the bus. So not only have I possibly perceived wrong, but whatever his reaction was toward me, whatever it made me feel colored those perceptions. Which, as I said color my feelings toward that person as a “jerk” today.

The question is where does this all start? What is the beginning of this seemingly never ending cycle. This wheel. And it’s not necessarily a linear set of causes and effects that goes back to the “beginning of time” whatever that is. It is more about uncovering hidden fears, and prejudices within you.  We all have a personal myth we’ve created. So it does require some meaningful, honest meditation on the lower self, the personality.

So it’s all about “blame yourself first” then, right? Maybe. Maybe “blame” is not the right word, depending on the situation. “Discover” or “study” is probably better. All I can blame the other guy for is the look on his face. It was my interpretation that caused me to think he was a jerk.

Hari Aum Shanti

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He’s Got High-igh-igh Hopes

by Aranyakananda

Since the first of the year I have been back in the position of searching for a job. I have had a part time job for the last 3 weeks or so but I know that will slow down in summer and I need something steady so I have been digging around the job boards.

It’s one of those things I wrote about a while back, how every 4-5 years I encounter a major setback. In that post I promised to encounter it when and if it came again with a better, more mentally healthy attitude than I previously had.

I’m doing fine in that respect, but there is one thing. I think when you abruptly lose a job like I did, you are bound to be bent on getting back to full-time as soon as possible, and therefore every job you apply for is “the right one” in your mind. Even at the expense of the actual right one. And why else would you apply in the first place if you didnt think it was the right one? But I have also noted that I have developed quite “high hopes” on one or two of them, presently.

How does one maintain “high hopes” without the fallout should what you hoped for not come to pass? In other words, is having high hopes perfectly healthy as long as you can live without the fruits of these hopes in the end? I mean a steady income will at some point become necessary but what I mean is, if I can have high hopes for this job, but at the same time know that other opportunities are out there, and maintain a healthy detachment from the fruit of the act of applying.

I find high hopes are constructive IF I can wield them properly. Meaning if I put high hopes on a particular application I am sending out then I will naturally put more effort into the cover letter for example. But what that means is I have to have a little bit of intuition to tell me which ones are reasonable to have these high hopes on.

Maybe it would be healthier to put away the high hopes so that each application receives equal effort, given that as I said I wouldn’t be applying for it in the first place if I didn’t think it was “the one.”

Aum Gam Ganapatiye Namaha
Aum Hreem Shreem Lakshmibhayo NamahJai Hari Aum

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Cleanliness is Next To Godliness and Godliness is Apparently Calculable

by Aranyakananda

First off I don’t really believe that old aphorism that “cleanliness is next to godliness”. If that were true, I’d be going straight to Hell in a handbasket, I am sure. But the idea fits well with another – and equally implausible – connection to “godliness” I have been seeing around the “interwebs” these days. Numbers. No, not the fourth book of the Torah. Actual numbers. Calculations. Statistics. Percentages. A points system for God’s sake! A friend tells me there is a Buddhist blogger out there who devised a points system for weighing the karmic badness to assign to the killing and/or eating of various types of animals.

If that were not baffling enough, I myself have come across a chart which shows how the “spiritual efficacy of a Gurumantra is dependent on the spiritual level of the person giving the mantra.” The chart goes on to assign a percentage to the “spiritual level” of the guru imparting the mantra, and a percentage to the “amount of divine energy (Chaitanya)” in the imparted mantra.

I don’t understand how one can assign such a value to a person (guru) for starters. The whole idea is highly suspect.

It goes on and on in that vein but the reason I am actually posting this today is because I was recently reminded that I had started it by a comment a friend of mine made asking me “Isn’t cleanliness next to godliness?” another concept which is highly suspect. I responded “Yes but so is filth.” I think many of the sadhus of India would agree. But I suppose it is a question of intent. One can corrupt one’s surroundings with one’s filth. Hell, one can BE corrupted by one’s own filth. Or one can wear it as a sign that he cannot be swayed by the various temptations of either filth or cleanliness. Do you judge godliness based on physical cleanliness when one might be spiritually filthy?

These aphorisms need to go, and the calculations I’ve referred to, though there is always room for discussion of such topics at the table of spiritual discourse, I personally am at a loss for what value they have. Maybe someone can help.

Jai Hari Aum.

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A Grihastha Conundrum

by Aranyakananda

For many reasons it has been about 2 months since I last posted here. For one, I’ve been sick for about 2 weeks, and during that time I’ve been looking for a job. The company I until recently worked for closed the department I was employed in without a moment’s notice on December 30. I am all set to go back to an old job on Feb 2. Aside from all that upheaval, I’ve been attempting to get back into a little bit more creative thinking in my life in general. How I want to spend my time. How I want to make my money. How the latter can lead to more freedom in the former.

Etcetera.

I have been working on making more of an effort at meditation after 2014 kind of turned into a disaster spiritually. But all is well. And I actually wanted to talk about one of the above factors. The job search.

I have one lined up as I said but it is a job that tends to be erratic in hours per week, and sometimes there is no work. So I have kept looking and I found a good one this morning which seems to be what my previous work has lead to. I have always looked for that. A job that seems to be the “next step.” Market research gave me confidence on the phones. Collections gave me strength of character and an authoritative voice on the subject matter. Inside sales gave me the ability to “know the product”. And I found a job listing for a sales job that was a lot of cold calling, selling ad space, and a major boost in income from anything I have ever experienced.

I was thinking about how I would go about presenting myself in my cover letter when I realized that the company mostly caters to Catholic churches.

I am not bringing this up because I am a Hindu and I want to be all prejudiced and exclusive and whatnot. I don’t intend to be any of those things. Especially the whatnot. In fact I have been consistently impressed with the current pope. But I am not yet trusting of the church in general and it seems that the job would involve a lot of what in the end would amount to promotion of the church.

Herein lies the conflict for me because as a householder it is my responsibility to “make ends meet.” Like I said I have something coming first week of February but it may not be steady after a few months. But do I shirk my own personal convictions in order to assure that my dharma as a grihastha is being fulfilled?

I honestly don’t know. With the long history of forced conversion in India, I have a hard time considering making my living helping the Catholic church promote itself. I am sure other opportunities will come. I am just not sure I am at liberty to let one pass untried.

Jai Hari Aum

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