Every time I start a new job it seems that the old specter of caffeine consumption shows its ugly face again. I came into Hinduism realizing that my present life brings with it several specific dharmas. One of them is kicking the above addiction. My last new job happened to be about a block away from a convenience store and I ended up picking up numerous bottles of pop per week. More numerous than is reasonable. So I failed in my dharma. My new job has a convenience store a bit down the road, but it is also across a busy highway with no button for pedestrians to push to stop traffic. So really its a non-option because I am in a wheelchair and my addiction does not, umm… cause me to risk my life.
So here I have before me another example of circumstances guiding me toward my dharma. Another one would be a lunch order miscommunication for our weekly team meetings which once left out my Coke then the next week got me water instead of Coke. I plan on changing my standing order to water. I can take a hint, for cryin’ out loud!
It makes me wonder if there is an anti-Ganesha…He Who Puts Up Barriers For My Own Good. But I digress.
I know, more than ever, and can’t stress enough, that kicking addictions is not achieved by circumstances alone. Meaning just because it is physically impossible for me to get a bottle of pop when I am working does not mean I have succeeded. Success is when you stop thinking about ways to get that bottle of pop. This of course is found all throughout the Bhagavad-Gita. Renunciation of violence is not achieved in simply walking off the battle field and hiding.
This all probably sounds funny, you know, 12-step program for Hindus, but I come from a family where addiction rules supreme. So it is not something to be trifled with, for me.